Tuesday, April 17, 2012

A Prayer

God, 

                I don’t really know what to do.  Before I go there, let me stop and think of Your majesty.  You are the perfect architect with perfect plans that can only be laid out by an all sovereign Creator.  While I can’t understand the grandness of all that You are, but it is of great joy that I can rest in those perfect plans that you have drawn up.  I find myself often lost in the midst of that thought…that You are THAT big.  You are…that…involved.  My thoughts dart back and forth from this stressful matter to another task that “must” be done and I barely give you a second thought.  So, as I stress about events that You are fully in control of…

…well…

…what runs through Your mind, my sovereign friend?

I can only imagine as You sit above all things, ruling them, controlling them, and doing so without a fright that You may lose control somehow, that you hear me in the midst of my cries and think, “Oh, how I have longed to draw you close to me child, but you are not willing.”  When I think of this, I feel an overwhelming shame…but you don’t want my shame, You already took care of that. 


You want my heart.


Am I willing to give it?  Really?  Am I willing to give You my heart beyond lip service?  Am I willing to actually buy into who You say You are?  It is funny, as I stop to hear myself talk, I have already turned this into a conversation about me.  Why do I so easily do this?  If I really focused on You, wouldn’t the me problems become strangely dim?  You are worth my focus.  You are more than worth it.  Help me to stop looking at myself.  Help me to stop seeing trials before I see You, to stop seeing issues, stresses, temptations, situations, mountains, giants, or any other hopeless thing…before I see…You.

Reveal Yourself to me.  I beg of You.  Let me see You.  Let me know You in a way only You can show.  Please.  I don’t want to rely on what others say about You, I want to experience You.  Please.  Let Your Word come to life.  I pray that your breath would breathe into me.  That Your Spirit would intertwine with mine and give it life that would burst within me.  I need that.  Show me this world as You see it.  Reveal to me the Kingdom, and how You would use me in it.  

Let me not stumble in the snares I fall easily into.  My pride.  My selfishness.  My many shortcomings that are too great to list.  Let me be humble, I know it is what You want.  You draw near to the humble, and that is where I want to be.  I pray for wisdom.  I seem to run by it so quickly.  In my rush to the next situation, I seldom stop to seek Your counsel.  Let me not resist in turning my everything over to You, rather, let me be receptive to Your plans.  

Teach me to rest easily in the plans You have and not be so worried and concerned that I may somehow obstruct the All-Powerful’s plans.  Let my hopes rest squarely upon You and show me that they are not mine to force.  You have created me, the plans You have for my life, and the journey in which all that would come together before time even began…I should surely be able to rest in that.

I began my prayer with an issue that weighed heavily on my heart, but after talking with you my Sovereign Friend, and realizing …rather, after Your revealing, my problem is not the problem.  My problem is my disjointed focus on the things that You already have well in hand.  My problem seems small in comparing it to You, when You are in the right perspective.

Let me follow Your standards, and not the standards which men may try to put upon me.  I pray that Your path is the one I follow, not my own, or that of another.  I thank You for the past miracles in my life, the places that You have brought me from, the unspeakable amount of grace You have shown.  Sadly, I ask for even more as I walk through this life.  Maybe not sadly, You have always given it so freely.  Thank You for Your grace, my Father.  I do not deserve a bit of it.  Thank You for everything.                                                                               

                                                                                                                    Sincerely,
                                                                                                     A Prodigal Son

2 comments:

Fizzibear said...

AMEN!

SSpjut said...

Seal the Deal
Adam I was in sales and marketing for over thirty years and the part I always stumbled on was "Seal the Deal". Get the sale whether they want it or need it. And unfortunately much of the churche's teaching has shifted from love God and the person next to you >'Seal the Deal and get em saved whether they want to or not.

Jesus moved and lived in relationship with the disenfranchised and out of that relationship he made disciples, healed the sick, cleansed the lepers, raised the dead, forgave sins and set the captives free.

His mission was two fold: reveal the Father and demonstrate the values of the kingdom > out of that the world was changed.